How My Books Black December (Parts 1-5) Effected Necessary Change Within the Alaska State Troopers

If you have been following along on my journey since at least February of 2021, when I re-created my social media and started advocating for Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault victims, then you know this has been a long time coming. Before we jump into that and get too ahead of ourselves, I do want to explain a little bit of the history for those that are new here.

In 2018 I took a leap of faith and moved to the biggest state in the United States, Alaska. I was in search of purpose, and I was following my dreams to be hired by the Alaska State Troopers. I held a few different jobs in Human Resources, one at a non-profit prior to accepting a position with the Alaska State Troopers. Once employed with the Alaska State Troopers, I fell in love with my job. But within just a few short months of working for the agency, I was cornered and manipulated by a Captain for the Alaska State Wildlife Troopers.

If you want to read the full story about what happened with this Captain of the Wildlife Troopers, check out Red March, available here on my website, through Amazon, and also at Barnes & Noble.

It would turn out that Captain Rex Leath only wanted sex from me, when I wanted friendship from him, and when I did not give him sex, or even kiss him... he retaliated. Which, his retaliation sparked an Adminisitrative Investigation. At first, he claimed that I had pursued him without him wanting me to, so when I was confronted I was asked to provide copies of our conversations because it was very much a he said/she said situation. Our conversations proved a VERY DIFFERENT story than the one he had been working so hard to portray. His lies eventually caught up to him, and he was asked to leave the Alaska State Troopers and the Alaska Wildlife Troopers for a few different reasons, all of which were sustained (see below):

After this was brought to light, the truth of the matter still remained concealed for quite some time and I received negative backlash from multiple members of the Department, thinking that I had in fact engaged in a sexual relationship with this individual--when that was never the case. I sucked it up though, and I kept going on about my day. Rex Leath left the Department, and after he did I attempted to re-kindle things with an ex-boyfriend of mine. I feared additional backlash from Rex if I dated while he was still employed, so I waited.

I was also not ready for a relationship, so I agreed to do friends with benefits for a while with my ex-boyfriend, who was a Trooper, and when I began to get feelings for him again, I cut it off. He kept encouraging me to continue having sex with him, of course, with the possibility of a potential relationship down the road. I did so, but I also began talking to other people, because I knew he was not what I wanted. Eventually, a few months go by of this back and forth, and I am just fed up with the back and forth at this point, so I ask to have a conversation with him. I assumed we could figure out a way forward, or just call it quits. Long story short, the day we were supposed to have a conversation (July 14, 2020) he showed up looking for one thing, and one thing only, and would not take no for an answer. It did not matter what I did, or what I said that day. He was on a mission to get his needs fulfilled.

You can read all the horrible details within my books Black December.

The part I wished I had more control over within my story, was if it got reported or not. I knew it would not be taken seriously, and I knew it would not only be the end of my career at the Alaska State Troopers but some other serious fallout or backlash could occur. I was afraid of their reach, and what they would try to do to shut me up. Well, after I told a friend of mine in confidence, she went and told the Lieutenant over the Alaska Bureau of Investigation... and there we were, we were off to a running start.

The ins and outs of this shitty, half-assed investigation are also detailed in my books Black December as well.

Nothing ever came of the criminal investigation, and I even had my restraining order denied after my rapist called my abusive ex-husband and told him my whereabouts--calling a hit on me. This immediately prompted me to flee the state for my, and my daughters' safety. I saw the corruption, and I was not about to sit around and wait until I became yet another statistic.

Just so you grasp the seriousness of how bad it was that my ex-husband was brought into the loop, he has been arrested multiple times for Felony Domestic Violence, and even kicked out of the United States Navy because he was demoted in rank, and unauthorized to pick up new rank because of Domestic Violence. He had not only threatened murder-suicide, but he had attempted it. I thanked my Marine Corps training for getting me out of that situation. So, now this Trooper calls this criminal, out of spite, and tells him where to find me... yeah, he 100% called a hit on me.

You may also ask, well if it was so bad, why did the Department not punish him for doing this? The answer is, I have no idea. I fought for this to be reprimanded, but the Department never did anything to him. However, the Department knew this man was a threat, and they went as far as to take my name out of the Public Employee Database so that I could not be searched and found. They saw how serious it was, at the time, when I was in good standing. But when a Trooper called him and informed him of where to find me, they just sat back and watched. Honestly, had he shown up and killed me or kidnapped my kid, that was probably what they were waiting for. Either I would be dead, and unable to hold them accountable, or I would be distracted and distraught so much so that the case would fall apart because I would be focused on other priorities.

I then continued fighting for justice, and quite literally bankrupted myself by paying tens of thousands of dollars in attorney's fees, while on Federally Protected FMLA for PTSD caused by this situation. My doctor saw it necessary to issue me 90 days MINIMUM away from the Department and offered to extend it. However, I fled the state within two days of the FMLA being approved. When I say fled, like my apartment was packed, a moving truck already took my stuff away, and my car was packed. I was leaving and never coming back. My doctor then issued me a notice saying that she would clear me to return to work after 90 days, but she would not clear me to return to the Alaska State Troopers, because "it would be re-traumatizing."

Additional details of this move and the lawsuit I am about to mention are also in Black December.

Once I get hired by another law enforcement agency in a different state, I begin the lawsuit against the Alaska State Troopers--but the Alaska State Troopers come back to say that nothing ever happened, and they would not even pay out $100,000. Which, after my attorney was paid out, would only cover moving costs, attorney fees, and lost wages while on FMLA. But they did go ahead and additionally say that they would not release a copy of the investigative report to me, because it would cause public hostility to the Department and it would cause future victims to not report their crimes (see below):

So, the lawsuit gets dropped, and I file bankruptcy and start my life over and begin advocating for victims of assault. I grow a significant following on social media and begin sharing my story. Eventually, I find the courage to write and publish the true events of what happened. Within just weeks of me publishing all five parts to Black December, my rapist is apparently put under an Administrative Investigation, the code to the Palmer Post is changed, and his car remains unmoving for months--according to Troopers located at Palmer Post. By mid-July, my rapist finds sweet justice. Just in time for the third anniversary of the assault, and he is fired from the Alaska State Troopers for lying under oath, misconduct and God knows what else.

It may have also helped that I have a lifetime no-contact order against this PRIOR Trooper also, since April of 2022. Because he continued to contact me and harass me after I left the state of Alaska. OVER A YEAR AFTER I LEFT THE STATE OF ALASKA. Which, the Department never did anything about that either, they did not see it as an issue that one of their Troopers is prohibited from coming into contact with their victim of a sexual assault case.

Not only could this re-open my lawsuit, but this looks really bad for the Department of Public Safety in Alaska. Ya'll kept him employed, even though I kept fighting to share the truth, but it is only after a victim is pushed over the edge and publishes a book will you listen to them? So, Alaska State Troopers, I pose you this question, going forward is every victim going to have to go to such extremes of publishing a damn book with court records, and public records, to be taken seriously? When will this end? Clearly, there is not only one bad apple employed, there are multiple. So, where will this end? You also clearly do not want me to stop talking about this, because I offered you an out--$100,000, and you denied it.

That offer is no longer valid.

The truth is the only option at this point.